Pain, Pain Go Away...

Not sure what to write. I am not on my diet, nor has my doctor released me to go back on it for awhile. I hurt really bad still and am unable to work or drive or unpack the many boxes that are staring at me in the new house.
I do have the greatest doctor who is treating me everyday. If it wasn't for him, I'd feel very hopeless and frustrated right now, instead of mildly hopeless and frustrated. I can still feel that my brain is fuzzy from the impact, in addition to my whole body hurting, but I trust both will heal with time and TLC.
My new pants are tight now, as I have to eat enough protein and fats for my muscles and brain to repair. My recovery is first on my priority list, but I am still frustrated that I have had such great success on this diet, and am forced to go the other direction. I will get on it again, when I am better. I know I just have to be patient, however I've never been strong in that particular attribute. ;)
Hope all is well with you, and I will catch you up on my progress soon. Tootles!

You Never Know...

...what life will hit you with next. For me, today, it was a car. Well, a pickup, to be exact. I was stopped behind a couple of cars, one who was wanting to turn left and was waiting for oncoming traffic to clear. I was on my way to work and so leaned over to my left to see how mane cars were coming and WHAM! I got rear ended.
I had some short-term memory loss and other signs of a head injury, so I had to have a CT scan and lots of X-rays. My head doesn't have any major signs of damage, and no broken bones, but my spine is REALLY messed up and I'm in excruciating pain. I was told by my doctor that I need LOTS of food and rest while my body repairs itself, so not only am I not able to re-lose the weight I've gained, I'm probably going to gain more! /Sigh... And here I was, all hiped up and ready to get going again today - excited to get back down to the 130's.
Well, like I said...we never know what life is going to throw at us. And often what we think is bad, really ends up good. So I am choosing to look for the good in this time of rest and recovery. And I hope for good in your life too. :) Tootles!

Finally Moved...Mostly

We got our internet connection, finally, after 5 days without it! I have been off of my diet for the last 6 days and have gained 8 pounds! :( I stress ate and cried my way through the weekend. We'd lived in the same house for 18 years - it's where we raised our son and had a happy life - and leaving was more traumatic than I thought it would be.
I feel mostly back in control again and am ready to move forward. I refuse to feel regret for what I did to myself. I can and will re-lose it and feel healthy again. I will focus on the great hope I have for the future and even though I don't know where we will end up living or what kind of careers we will have, this mid-life time is a new beginning. There are endless possibilities and I will go forward, strong and healthy and HAVING FUN! I only get one shot at this life, after all...
And speaking of 'shots', I did figure this weekend since I wasn't on the diet nor was I getting any sleep, that having a few drinks might do me some good...I discovered these shots that taste like German Chocolate cake! Oh My! They were delicious! So...I had, ummm, 9. Yup, you read that right. It's not a typo...I had 9! I got a bit, how should I say, umm toasted. That's a nice way to put it. :) I am one of those lucky people who never get sick from alcohol nor get hangovers...so I can drink what I want. AND I WANTED 9, hehe. I was pretty funny, I hear. If you are ever in Vancouver, WA and want a drink...go to Top Shelf and have Roger make you a German Chocolate cake...tell him Vonda sent you. If he says, 'Who?' say, 'The crazy woman who had 9 shots and told you she loves you!' I mean really...who wouldn't love a man who gives her chocolate drinks? :)

Vonda's update photo!!!

Wow! Vonda just emailed me an updated photo of herself and I must say Vonda, you are looking fantastic!!! If only I could get the motivation to look half as good as you do. Once again congratulations you look amazing!!

Tammy,
www.drugdelivery.ca

Yippee! In the 130's!

I was 139.4 this morning and am so happy! I needed that boost! I was feeling a little sorry for myself last night - wanted to just eat a bowl of pasta! We are moving out of the house we have lived in for 18 years this week, and the stress catches up with me every now and then. But the future is bright and I'm excited for the possibilities!
The moving truck will be here on Saturday and I have lots of packing to do, so I will keep this short. My size 12's are falling off of me...time to go shopping again! :) Oh darn, hehe. I love little clothes again. What a treat to get dressed every day in cute little tops and pants. Not sure how low the Hcg will take me...I may already have told you that the web site Cindy recommended said I should be at 134. But we will see what the drug says, hehe. Dr Simeon assures us that it won't let us lose essential fat, so it could be anytime within the next 15 pounds. I'll keep ya posted! Tootles! =)

Got Hcg...

..so, back on program today. I took a break and didn't pay much attention to what I ate, because I was tired of thinking about food. I'm up a few pounds (mostly water, my hands are tight today), but I don't care...it will come off again. I am really headachy though, and I'm sure the food selection has something to do with that. Hopefully, being back on the wholesome, organic foods we eat on this program will get rid of it. It's a DOOZY! :(
Talk to you soon!

No Shots - New Pic

Well, the good news is, I didn't have to push a sharp object into my belly today...the bad news is I'm out of hcg and not sure when it will get here. I weighed 140 lbs. today and the internet site that calculates your target weight says I should be 134. I'm anxious to get there, but Dr Simeon doesn't want us losing when we aren't on hcg...so, I will play the waiting game.
I posted a new picture. That is how I looked before going out to Hood River Saturday. I actually look pretty hot, I have to say, hehe. Very surprising! (and fun!)
140 lbs is the range I am going to try to stay in until I get some hcg. I'll keep you posted, of course. Tootles! =)

No Idea...

I have no idea how much I weighed this morning...I stepped on the scales 4 times, and every time was different! I did have to take cold medicine last night in order to get some sleep, so I didn't expect to lose, but it would be nice to know, hehe. Not a big deal...as the song says, "There's always tomorrow, where dreams will come true.." or some balderdash like that. ;)
I used the last of my hcg today. They made a mistake getting my shipment out, and it hasn't even gone through customs yet. I'm very frustrated, I have to admit. I have 3 days with the 500 calorie diet now, and then I have to figure out a menu to maintain until the hcg gets here. I hate wasted time. Oh well..
Ok, time to get ready for work. Tootles! =)

Fun in Hood River, OR

We met friends in Hood River for drinks and dinner last night. Wow! What a quaint, high-end town. And the food was exquisite! For those of you who have never been to the Columbia River Gorge area, it really is a must see. I've lived near it all my life, and never get tired of the beauty of the rock formations, forests waterfalls, and, of course, the Columbia River. But I'd never spent much time in Hood River before...was never a reason to. I'm not a wind-surfer, which the vast majority of residents seem to be. I've always loved driving past the town, or stopping for a short watch of all the sails on the water and the fantastic moves the wind-surfer's make. But I'd never seen the darling shops and boutiques and cafe's. It's a place we will visit more!
I did go off of my diet a bit, but only gained 1/2 pound, so I don't feel bad about it. We had a great time eating and walking, laughing and site-seeing. Next time, I'll make sure to go earlier in the day! =)

130's are Coming! 130's are Coming!

I love that they are right around the corner, calling me. I was 141.2 this morning. Sooooo close! I'm still sick, so I was surprised that the scales went down so much today. But very pleased.
I was supposed to go to my niece's wedding today, but it's an outside wedding; it's supposed to only get to 72 degrees; and any little bit of wind hurts my ears so bad. I will be staying home. I hope it doesn't rain on her (well, them. But I always think of the bride at the wedding.) It's not in the forecast until tomorrow, but the forecasters are a bunch of liars! ;)
Then tomorrow I am supposed to take another niece shopping for her birthday and then in the evening, go dancing with the hubby and another couple. Looks like I will be disappointing several people this weekend. :( I hate that!
I am scheduled to work a nine hour shift on Sunday, but I will be calling my boss today and forewarning her how sick I am. It's crazy how little microscopic bugs can interfere with a person's life! /sigh Oh well...I still look good, hehe. Ok, time for my shot. Catch ya laterz! =)

142.8 this Morning - 50 pounds Lost Total!

Wow! That feels good to be so close to my goal! 10-15 more pounds it go and I will be as perfect as this 41 year old body can be without major surgery, hehe.
We went out again last night. It's getting easier and easier to just drink water. Probably because it's so hot outside, people may just think I'm thirsty. When we go out tonight, I'm going to order iced tea. That sounds refreshing and looks like a drink, so I won't have people asking me if they can buy me a drink.
Mustard really is my best friend, I have to say. It tastes great on all meats, makes a great salad dressing base, and has such a happy little kick to it, that I never get tired of it! =) Tabasco sauce helped me out the other day, too. I had a crab salad, and put lemon juice and Tabasco sauce on it - yummy!
Time to go to the chiropractor - I've been hurting a lot, and I'm hoping he can help. Hope your day is successful and happy! Tootles! =)

143.4 Today

I'm feeling much better today, all of the vitamin C really helped. And I am really happy to finally be past 144. I was starting to worry that the hcg was not working anymore. But I'm keeping on! I have a picture to download of me from last weekend's party. I will try to get that uploaded today. Just keep in mind, I am NOT photogenic! =)
We had hat day at work yesterday. I wore a jester's hat with pom-poms on the ends and got so many smiles and compliments! It was so fun! Though, one person wanted me to say something funny while I was passing him in the hall, and I told him I'd get back to him, hehe. We gave out cookies and cupcakes to everyone, and wow! the smell make my tummy growl all day. I really wanted to have a couple of cookies. Everyone who took a bite was saying how great they were. BUT, I want to be at my goal weight more, so I just kept thinking about that, and I got through it just fine. I even was able to bring some home to the family.
Ok, I'm going to work on the picture...talk to you soon! Tootles! =)

Fighting a Cold

I'm taking only vitamin C for it, but I'm still up to 145 this morning. Have no idea why. I am quite constipated, though, and plan to do something about it today.
We are having member appreciation day at work today, so all the staff will be wearing funny hats and there are cookies and cupcakes we are giving out. It should be fun, if I'm feeling better. I have a jester's hat with fuzzy pom-poms on the ends that I wear to Mardi-gras celebrations - always good for a laugh.
We are starting to go out with other couples a lot more, and meeting new people. It's really fun! Yes, I want to be able to drink what they are instead of just water or coffee, but I am having too much fun for that to be a major problem. I love fitting into my party clothes again!
Well, have a great Monday! Cya!

Up a Little Today

I've been moving my son from one big house to another, and I had really low blood sugar last night. His new house is new construction, so the cleaning has been a nightmare! I was exhausted and shaky, so I broke down and ate some of the food that was there for all the workers. Obviously it was not my diet food. I tasted fine - good to have a different taste - but I made sure to have nothing with sugar in it. It took days to get sugar back out of my system again last time I went off, and I craved it a lot. I didn't want to go through that again; I just needed real food because I didn't want to have a hypoglycemic episode.
Anyway, I was 144.2 this morning, so it was worth it. Yes, I'd rather have lost weight and been able to stay on my diet, but life happens and I choose to make good decisions and not deal with guilt and regrets. Back on again today, obviously. So, it's all good. Have a great day! Tootles! =)